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I suppose overwhelmed is still the best word that comes to mind. I understand racism, violence, trauma and fear. The uncertainty that comes with large gatherings and public spaces, the rightful and generational fear of the police, the loss of life and the capricious nature of existence and the utter lack of value to a black man’s death in comparison to a white man’s. The video perfectly explores the shock and fear that comes with being black in America a version of violence that lurks around every corner. I do “understand” the message behind the song and video. Now, I want to cover a few things immediately. Thanks to a childhood and teenage years spent desensitizing myself to sex and violence I was shocked to feel so viscerally unsettled within seconds of the video starting. The initial act of shocking violence via a gunshot delivered to the back of a man’s head took my breath away in a way that very few pieces of media can. When I finally did the video due to Youtube Music’s aggressive autoplay feature, I was at first watching mostly just sort of overwhelmed nearly to the point of disliking the video. It wasn’t that the song was offensive or worrisome to me with the limited context I had for it it just didn’t float into my usual musical sphere of French house DJs and sad music by hot Japanese men. I knew about it, I knew people talked about it but I had mostly skipped over the song because to be Childish Gambino just means Donald Glover and Donald Glover means Marshall Lee the Vampire King and that one guy in Community a show that I had never watched but knew about thanks to my inner circle. I somehow managed to miss the cultural whirlwind that came with Childish Gambino releasing the music video to his song This is America in 2018.